The Shadow Proves the Sunshine

I’m fighting the flu and I have an ear infection!

so what did I do?

Well it was raining so Daniel was off work so we hung out and I bought a nerf gun under his tutelagewhich looks something like this

Thanks Daniel!!!!!!

then I spent the night with my small group….I’m feeling crappy but that did not stop me from having a pretty awesome day!!

Andrew Stuart

This is the music of a Gibbs, a man I had the pleasure of working with at a camp in Ontario. If there’s one thing you should do today it’s listening to some of his songs.

Where to begin? how do you put all that has been running through your head in a single post without sounding like a crazy person? some Of you may have noted that the amount of posts I’ve been making have dropped in quantity, others may have noticed that what has been posted is mostly re-blogs or some comment of little importance.

I have been struggling for the past year to be real, to be the man God made me to be instead of the fake who goes along with whatever is convenient. I’ve mentioned how I love a lot of activities but will not take the effort to do them unless there is someone else to take the lead. the thing is that it is so easy to fall into the role your friends have placed you in. When I was away from Newfoundland I grew but when I returned I soon fell back into my assigned role. Hearing the stories told jokingly of all my stupid comments and deeds from back in Jr. High.

I don’t know how far I’ve come in my journey of being real. In fact in many ways I think I’m stunted be my fears. what happens if I finally step up and fail so miserably? Or what if I can’t handle it but there are no more masks to hide behind?

I don’t have any answers but I do think this year will be one of great change. It hit me hard the past weekend just how different my life will be. Steph, Justin, Carl, Jenn, Jane, Nancy, Daniel, Nicole……(and there are others) will be leaving Newfoundland. These are some of my closest friends and confidants, the people to whom I turn to for answers and guidance and friendship and laughter. I don’t know who I will be without them. they are the people that I talk to 95% of the time I am going to miss them terribly. It is going to break my heart a little more then a lot to see so many of them go all at the same time.

It will in all likelihood be a very lonely year….but hopefully God will use this time to show me who I am without them. More than just the friendly guy in the corner but Timothy in all my screwed and messed up ways open and honest and being used by God and falling more in love with Him and learning to stand as the man he made me to be with his loving support and guidance

I’m not sure if this made any sense at all either way its what I’m trying to work through at the moment. I would value any comment, suggestion, or opinion.

Peace

~Timothy~

I’m staying at avis. thanks for the comments And I do agree with the outdoor and exercise aspects so I’ll just have to do my best to have fun in the outdoors and exercise when I’m not working. although washing cars all day is good exercise too. Anyway I put it God’s hands and I feel at peace! night all

So I am working at avis and I just received a call from east coast trail to work starting tuesday for significantly more money. What do you think? Should I stay or go. The ect work will be much harder and I’ve already committed to work here. Help they told me I need to make the decision in the next few hours

But so far in the past hour I’ve done absolutely nothing. We were called in to shuttle cars but the man in charge is not here and we are waiting for the phone call to tell where to go and what to do. So I’m just sitting here getting paid trying not to sleep

So up untill now the instructor has been listed as unknown….but now I see that the instructor for the course I am redoing is none other than the one who taught me last time……the one that I don’t really like….the one how kinda sucks at teaching. Alright I’ll let you know how the next 2.5 hours go………and here I was actually getting excited for Spanish.

Just finished my week long read of the Harry Potter series. It was my first time reading through the whole series since book 7 came out so when I finally reached the 7th book it was like reading it for the first time! I feel that I am now allowed to watch the final HP movie when it comes out in theatres!!!